Two weeks from today, my husband will graduate from college. I’m not sure if the true meaning of this has hit me yet. We’ve been married for a little over seven months and yet we’ve never really had the experience of living together; Auburn is three long hours away from my job in Fort Payne. In fourteen days there will be just one home for us. We just don’t know where that will be.
I love my job. The only thing better would be the unrealistic fantasy of designing landscapes for the rich and famous at the rate of hundreds of dollars an hour. The location of my job, however, does not lend itself well to budding software engineers such as my husband. Though he interviewed for a job here in town, it is more likely that we could end up in Birmingham, Atlanta, or even back in Auburn. Even so, right now we are just wafting in the breeze of fluttering resumés and interviews.
I feel so emotionally unsettled. Torn between the joy of Steven’s impending graduation and uncertainty of where we could end up, I haven’t been able to concentrate on practically anything, including work. I’m thankful that the summer heat deters people from their landscaping desires.
At the very least, Steven will be able to move up here after graduation and concentrate soley on his job-hunting while I work. Getting rid of his Auburn rent, power, and other financial necessities will be a great relief on ye olde checking account. We would still be living day-to-day, though, until someone comes through with a job offer. What if nothing comes through at all? Are we destined to live in this day-to-day manner for the rest of our carzy little lives?
This is the moment when I realize I worry like my grandmother.
I have to remind myself that everything will be so much better once Steven and I are actually living together. I have to remember how he always makes me feel more confident and sure of myself. He supports me as I do him. Sometimes, (especially on Wednesday nights), I tend to forget that. Just two more weeks until he comes home for good.
In two weeks, I’ll be okay.